Returning to OneSelf

First selfie of 2022 🤳🏽My son asked me this morning why I was so “dressed up”. If lipstick, concealer + mascara is all it takes -then hellz yasss 🤣

Truth is my soul is tired. Here’s why:

It is said that disembodied voice dreams may occur at any time but particularly when a soul is in distress; then the deep self cuts to the chase, so to speak. Bang! A woman’s soul speaks. And it tells her what comes next… if we do not come on our own, if we aren’t paying attention to our own season and the time for return the Old One will come for us calling and calling until something in us responds. Perhaps we have become too intense about something. We can become too worn down by something. We can be over-loved , under-loved, overworked, underworked… each costs much.

In the face of “too much” we gradually become dry, our hearts become tired, our energies begin to become fair, and a mysterious longing for —we almost never have a name for it other than “a something” rises up and up more and more; then we hear the Old One calls. 

That feeling of being torn, comes from hearing, consciously or unconsciously, something calling us, calling us back, something that we cannot say no to without hurting ourselves…

“…one night

there’s a heartbeat at the door.

Outside, a woman in the fog,

with hair of twigs and dress of weed,

dripping green lake water.

She says “I am you,

and I have traveled a long distance. 

Come with me, there is something I must show you…”

She turns to go, her cloak falls open,

Suddenly, golden light … everywhere, golden light…” 

Returning to OneSelf

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